I don't know if I shoud write this out lah. Coz this is really a very personal thingy in my life. And it just happened. Like 30 November 2010. But I really need to let this outta my chest.
My Aunty, Mum's sister, couldn't move her whole body last night. That was what my Grandma told Mummy through the phone. They were planning to call the ambulance in the morning. Around 6AM, Yi Ma had no more breath. Then they hurriedly called the ambulance up. In the ambulance, the medics managed to revive and retrieve her pulse back. When she reached the hospital, she lost it again. So yea, my Yi Ma is no longer around as of 30 November. And it really came across as a shock when I received the SMS from Mummy around 10AM. How can someone, only 50+, pass away just like that? It's a bit hard to type this post. Halfway through, I got emotional and started crying. Because it finally strucked me. Like in the afternoon, I was still okay. But now, as I'm sitting in the living room alone, I finally have time to think and realise that today is really an eventful day. So many things happening today. My Aunt's death, my public speaking speech, supposed to have captain's ball, then I had Smile A Wish Main Comm meeting. Everything kept me busy that I didn't have time to process what really happened.
I sat down, just chatting with friends in MSN, and I realised. Yea, Yi Ma is really gone. Mum told me she was over there, being unable to move, sweating profusely and even peed on herself. It's like my Grandma was there. Imagine you over there, seeing your daughter unable to move, and all you could do is like practically nothing? She just cleaned my Yi Ma up and monitored her all the way to morning at 6AM. When she went breathless. Then they called up the ambulance. Your daughter, passing off before you and there is nothing you can do.
Life is really fragile. It's like so easy, a life can be taken away. Just one day, she is still fine, and the next day, gone like that. I guess no one in school could tell anything happened to my family. I guess I always put on a strong front. And only when I'm alone, then I let my emotions go. If only I worked a bit harder to reach out to her. Then she will at least get saved before she pass on. When I go to heaven one day, I will look around and see my family, but no Yi Ma. Coz I didn't work hard enough. If only I talked to her more and made her feel more comfortable and happy. Right now, everything can only be "if only" because there is nothing I can do now. Except to pay my respects at the wake. I'm afraid I would cry, when I see her face in the photoframe and in the glass coffin. Really, only when people go and leave you, then you will truly regret and wished you treated them much better. Right now, I guess I just wanna love my family even more and treasure them more, before they pass on so that there will be lesser regrets in my life. Anyone who is reading this, please go love your family more. Before you say "I regret".
P.S: I don't even have a solo picture I have with her. Except my baby pics.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Great People.
Everyone knows about Titanic sinking. But who knows certain people in the ship, who were so great and selfless that they gave up their lives to save others? Yea, now I wanna tell you all about this great man. Whose name is John Harper. John Harper was a Christian since 13 and he started preaching when he was 17. That is my age lah means like example I would be preaching now. And his church is like 500 people, which is considered many in that time. I think that is very impressive already lah. Imagine Joyce Goh, preaching and having a church of 500 strong. Thats awesomesauce. Hahaha oh yea and John Harper had a wife and a daughter. His wife died very early, leaving his daughter and him. He and his daughter went on Titanic to sail the ocean blue. The people thought they build a ship that no water could go through. But the God almighty hands said the ship will never land, it was sad when the big ship went down. Okay it's a camp song. But so suit the mood now right? I mean same topic what. Then that very fateful day, the Titanic, which was known to be unsinkable, hit an iceberg and it started to go down down down.
When more water came in, people started getting the lifeboats. But many people refused to leave the Titanic, because they thought it would be safer staying in the ship than sitting in a tiny boat in the middle of nowhere. They also paid a lot of money to get on board and like you know if you stay in some suite in a 5 star hotel, maybe got terrorist attack you also think you will be safe? So they refused to leave. At that moment, John Harper put his 6 year old daughter (fondly called Nana) on to the life boat that was around. He could have gotten onto the boat easily, as many people didn't want to get on board. But he kissed his daughter on her forehead, and told her, "Sweetie, I need to stay here. But I will see you again some day." Then their boat went off. And he remained there, determined to get people saved to come to know Jesus before they die, so that they can go to heaven. So he went around, asking people if they are Christians and if they are willing to accept Jesus, so that they can go to heaven. Even as the boat sank, and like 1000 over people were stranded in the middle of nowhere, some even without life jackets, he was busy swimming around and trying to get people saved. So that they will die and go to heaven.
There was this particular stubborn guy, who refused to be saved and rather stay there hanging onto this debris. John Harper asked if he would like to accept Christ and he said no and so John Harper took off his life jacket and handed it to him, telling him he would need it more than he does coz when John Harper dies, he knows he will go to heaven but the guy is not saved so he won't. Therefore he threw his jacket there with the guy and went off to another person. And he came back to the guy and the guy accepted Jesus into his life. Then only ONE single life boat No. 4 came back to save the people, saving 6 people before leaving. And the guy whom John Harper gave his life jacket to went on the boat, and therefore saved his own life. Thus he was telling his story to everyone and he really teared because he never met such a man before.
I am also very touched by how this man is so selfless that he puts others really before him, even willing to sacrifice his own life. How many of us can do that? Man are all selfish by nature, like how the boats could fit 65 people, but one of the boat only had 12 people in it and they left off. All beacause the people in the boat were panicking and all they cared was for their dear lives. If you ask me now, like if me and my friend were to be kidnapped in a room, and the kidnapper said he will only release one of us, I really don't know what will happen. It's really a big sacrifice when you actually give up your life to save someone else's and I really admire John Harper for his courage and bravery and selfless love for people. I wanna be someone like that in the future, where I will think about people before thinking about what benefits me the most. To learn to put myself in other people's shoes more. :D hehehe now I sound like some cheem knowlegable person right? K ciao!
With love,
Joyce
John Harper and his daughter Nana.
When more water came in, people started getting the lifeboats. But many people refused to leave the Titanic, because they thought it would be safer staying in the ship than sitting in a tiny boat in the middle of nowhere. They also paid a lot of money to get on board and like you know if you stay in some suite in a 5 star hotel, maybe got terrorist attack you also think you will be safe? So they refused to leave. At that moment, John Harper put his 6 year old daughter (fondly called Nana) on to the life boat that was around. He could have gotten onto the boat easily, as many people didn't want to get on board. But he kissed his daughter on her forehead, and told her, "Sweetie, I need to stay here. But I will see you again some day." Then their boat went off. And he remained there, determined to get people saved to come to know Jesus before they die, so that they can go to heaven. So he went around, asking people if they are Christians and if they are willing to accept Jesus, so that they can go to heaven. Even as the boat sank, and like 1000 over people were stranded in the middle of nowhere, some even without life jackets, he was busy swimming around and trying to get people saved. So that they will die and go to heaven.
There was this particular stubborn guy, who refused to be saved and rather stay there hanging onto this debris. John Harper asked if he would like to accept Christ and he said no and so John Harper took off his life jacket and handed it to him, telling him he would need it more than he does coz when John Harper dies, he knows he will go to heaven but the guy is not saved so he won't. Therefore he threw his jacket there with the guy and went off to another person. And he came back to the guy and the guy accepted Jesus into his life. Then only ONE single life boat No. 4 came back to save the people, saving 6 people before leaving. And the guy whom John Harper gave his life jacket to went on the boat, and therefore saved his own life. Thus he was telling his story to everyone and he really teared because he never met such a man before.
I am also very touched by how this man is so selfless that he puts others really before him, even willing to sacrifice his own life. How many of us can do that? Man are all selfish by nature, like how the boats could fit 65 people, but one of the boat only had 12 people in it and they left off. All beacause the people in the boat were panicking and all they cared was for their dear lives. If you ask me now, like if me and my friend were to be kidnapped in a room, and the kidnapper said he will only release one of us, I really don't know what will happen. It's really a big sacrifice when you actually give up your life to save someone else's and I really admire John Harper for his courage and bravery and selfless love for people. I wanna be someone like that in the future, where I will think about people before thinking about what benefits me the most. To learn to put myself in other people's shoes more. :D hehehe now I sound like some cheem knowlegable person right? K ciao!
With love,
Joyce
John Harper and his daughter Nana.
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Grandmother’s 70th Birthday Celebratory Speech
Today, we all gather here to celebrate the grand 70th birthday of Tan Mui Hua, my Grandmother. Overall, in her 70 years so far, her life had been eventful and surely, there were tears of pain but also tears of joy. Today, I would be telling everyone about how my Grandmother has touched me and really been a role model to me. She really loved me with all her heart and nurtured me into the Joyce of today. I would like to tell everyone how she cared for me while growing up, how she has been a role model and also my words of appreciation to thank her for all that she has done for me and to wish her a very happy birthday.
My grandmother has been a part of my life, caring for me since I was just a little baby. My elder sister and I would be cared for by her. Although we have a maid, but the bond between our grandmother is much stronger because there is blood ties connected to it. I remember how she would stay over in our house during certain weekends, in the room that we saved for her. There would be a double-decker queen sized bed in the room that was affectionately called “Ah Mah’s room”. My elder sister and I (being small sized at that age) were able to squeeze and all sleep together with our dear grandmother. That was how close we were. I remembered once I wetted the bed while sleeping with her when I was about 6 years-old. She did not reprimand me, but instead got up and woke me up to get me washed up and changed the sheets of the bed so that we could go back to sleep. Just the little things that she does for me really let me feel the love she has for me.
I also remember when I visit her at her house, I would shout out her name, calling for her. And from the kitchen, she would spring out and go, “Hey!” followed by a big warm hug. As I had a sinus problem since young, she would turn the fan away from me but oscillate it around so that I would not feel warm, but will still be able to feel the wind and not get a runny nose. I used to stay over at her house a lot when I was younger and as usual, I would sleep with her. I can recall the memories where I would jump on her bed while she watched television on her chair, then when she got tired, she would put some Vicks in my nose to aid me in breathing during the night (due to my sinus problem I would have difficulty breathing) She would also pat me gently on my bottoms to sleep, and would only stop till I fell asleep. I would never forget the love and care she gave me while I was growing up from a young girl, into a teenager, slowly going into Polytechnic. All in all, I would like to say, Ah Mah, I love you forever. <3
My grandmother has been a part of my life, caring for me since I was just a little baby. My elder sister and I would be cared for by her. Although we have a maid, but the bond between our grandmother is much stronger because there is blood ties connected to it. I remember how she would stay over in our house during certain weekends, in the room that we saved for her. There would be a double-decker queen sized bed in the room that was affectionately called “Ah Mah’s room”. My elder sister and I (being small sized at that age) were able to squeeze and all sleep together with our dear grandmother. That was how close we were. I remembered once I wetted the bed while sleeping with her when I was about 6 years-old. She did not reprimand me, but instead got up and woke me up to get me washed up and changed the sheets of the bed so that we could go back to sleep. Just the little things that she does for me really let me feel the love she has for me.
I also remember when I visit her at her house, I would shout out her name, calling for her. And from the kitchen, she would spring out and go, “Hey!” followed by a big warm hug. As I had a sinus problem since young, she would turn the fan away from me but oscillate it around so that I would not feel warm, but will still be able to feel the wind and not get a runny nose. I used to stay over at her house a lot when I was younger and as usual, I would sleep with her. I can recall the memories where I would jump on her bed while she watched television on her chair, then when she got tired, she would put some Vicks in my nose to aid me in breathing during the night (due to my sinus problem I would have difficulty breathing) She would also pat me gently on my bottoms to sleep, and would only stop till I fell asleep. I would never forget the love and care she gave me while I was growing up from a young girl, into a teenager, slowly going into Polytechnic. All in all, I would like to say, Ah Mah, I love you forever. <3
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Joke of the day.
Okay hi ya'll! I'm back in action. Haha. Oh ya just wanna share this few riddles with you all! The first one is told by my friend. What is the fastest key on the keyboard? Hahaha this is funny to me lah! But maybe not to you all. The answer is... F1! HEHEHE. I told my family and my mum went to tell her colleagues and they were like, "you laugh what, not even funny!" Hahaha my mum laughes at her own joke while no one around laughed. Haha. Don't you feel when adult tell jokes, only they laugh. But when kids or teens tell jokes, everyone laughs? I think adults are lamer than young people lah. :P Sorry mama! Ohh my second and third joke is created by me! Like I can just think of jokes and riddles on the spot. More of riddles lah. I like people to guess my lame answers. One way of making riddles is you think of the answer first. Okay like my riddle now. What is the best part of a crop? Hehehe the answer is... the cream of the crop! Hahaha get it??? Funny right! No? Okok how about this. What bar is the most alien? The answer is SPACEBAR!! Because space got aliens. Hahaha. I think it's funny lor. If you don't think its funny then maybe you live in space. That's why you aren't laughing coz you feel like I'm being Spacist(like racist/sexist but space/aliens) Hehehe.
Oh just wanna tell you all some happy thing today. My laptop, (which I have not given a name yet) which has no audio, now has audio again! I'm so happy and glad my friend is able to fix it. Now I can hear the deng deng deng! of the MSN sound. Haha. And if I webcam with friends, they would be able to hear me! :) And I can finally click on the link of the song and hear the song, instead of pretending I clicked and listened to the song and pretend to say very nice *insert fake smiley*. And I did my speech and I thought it was ok. Although my heart was beating rather fast and my legs were shaking and shivering. And I forgot a bit of the last part but I laughed and I went like, "Oh!" and continue to my point. Hahaha. And my ang moh teacher Miss Sarah who lived in India for many years laughed when I did my high and low pitched "Aha!/Aha..." which I think is a good thing because I am showing variations in pitch! Hehehe. And I wore my cute baby pink "Hello" shirt. Hehehe. Which means it's a very good day because I can say hello without opening my mouth to. Without waving my hands either. Just point at the words. Hahaha. Okay lah, here I am yabbering and my Biz Stats homework remains undone. Perhaps I should wake up at 8AM in the morning again to do my homework because I won't be able to get it done if I were to do it later as I don't know where is my calculator that my younger sister Maygoh( Goh is our surname, but I like calling her Maygoh and not May) took and she is already having holidays but she is still lazy to pass it to me!! Argh. I shall go slaughter and slash her someday. Then some gang will recruit me because I know how to slash people also. Hahaha JOKE AH! Don't slash me! T.T K lah tata all! Teehee!
LERVE,
Joyful
Original
Young
Cute
Energetic
P.S: Does my little cousin look like me? Haha.
P.S.S: Do I give off a bad vibe? Like make people think I want guys to like me or something. Please don't like me! TYVM.
P.S.S: Gang slashing mentioned here has no deliberate intent to be linked to anything and so anything that sounds similar is coincidental and not done on purpose.
Oh just wanna tell you all some happy thing today. My laptop, (which I have not given a name yet) which has no audio, now has audio again! I'm so happy and glad my friend is able to fix it. Now I can hear the deng deng deng! of the MSN sound. Haha. And if I webcam with friends, they would be able to hear me! :) And I can finally click on the link of the song and hear the song, instead of pretending I clicked and listened to the song and pretend to say very nice *insert fake smiley*. And I did my speech and I thought it was ok. Although my heart was beating rather fast and my legs were shaking and shivering. And I forgot a bit of the last part but I laughed and I went like, "Oh!" and continue to my point. Hahaha. And my ang moh teacher Miss Sarah who lived in India for many years laughed when I did my high and low pitched "Aha!/Aha..." which I think is a good thing because I am showing variations in pitch! Hehehe. And I wore my cute baby pink "Hello" shirt. Hehehe. Which means it's a very good day because I can say hello without opening my mouth to. Without waving my hands either. Just point at the words. Hahaha. Okay lah, here I am yabbering and my Biz Stats homework remains undone. Perhaps I should wake up at 8AM in the morning again to do my homework because I won't be able to get it done if I were to do it later as I don't know where is my calculator that my younger sister Maygoh( Goh is our surname, but I like calling her Maygoh and not May) took and she is already having holidays but she is still lazy to pass it to me!! Argh. I shall go slaughter and slash her someday. Then some gang will recruit me because I know how to slash people also. Hahaha JOKE AH! Don't slash me! T.T K lah tata all! Teehee!
LERVE,
Joyful
Original
Young
Cute
Energetic
P.S: Does my little cousin look like me? Haha.
P.S.S: Do I give off a bad vibe? Like make people think I want guys to like me or something. Please don't like me! TYVM.
P.S.S: Gang slashing mentioned here has no deliberate intent to be linked to anything and so anything that sounds similar is coincidental and not done on purpose.
Monday, November 1, 2010
R.I.P
WARNING! WHOEVER SCROLLED IN HERE PLEASE BE WARNED ALREADY THAT I TOLD YOU THIS IS AN EMO POST SO IF YOU DON'T WANNA CRY, I SUGGEST YOU LEAVE RIGHT NOW. OK BYEBYE LEAVERS. AND THOSE WHO REMAIN, ERM, GOOD LUCK TO YOU. MUAHHAHAHA. OH I MEAN SOB SOBS.
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Okay firstly, I would like to say that my poor dolphin toy (name is Dolquin. Don't laugh at the name. Thanks) has a hole on her body. T.T How sad is that? My poor baby who smells so good (although my mama will bed to differ) is injured. I think someone shot her. :( This mummy here is sad lah! My poor baby kena injured! Nooooo! Okay then my Mozilla Firefox got problem. WHY!!?? I pressed "Restart Firefox" but also nothing happened. Idiot! Grrrr.. But something good happened lah. I finally uninstalled the annoying Norton that always pops up saying subscription expired and all that. Very annoying everytime I also press "Remind me 3 days later." Oh yeah, I just download AVG. Too bad Norton! Hohoho!
Then another thing is that I have my BA tutorial screaming at me. Sitting there on the table. Shouting at me to go do my homework. Noooo! Walao I holiday too long I really no mood to do homework already lah. Yesterday do Microeconomics I already wanna die. :( Hais. I hate homework. I wish my holidays restart again!) Hahaha then I can go do something productive. Hey, actually I've been going out during the holidays alot! Like almost everyday lah! Maybe I should have gone to work lah. Then I would feel that I spent my holidays productively. Hahaha.
Anyway right, the saddest thing of all, is that I've gained.... 1KG! AHHHH!!! That's a sad thing. Coz I've been 43 since like the start of this year and now I'm like suddenly 44. I ate alot lah these few days. I'm permenantly 44kg already because I took my weight yesterday and I was 44kg and today I took it again just now. I was 44.2kg. :( I think my worms disappeared! That's why I'm starting to gain weight. Maybe one day I passed out my worm lah. Or maybe last time I had Lulu and Sally but now I think Lulu is dead. Hence the blog post name! Because one of my wormies died. RIP worm! My younger sister is 47. She just told me. And thus I am the lightest at home. Should I be happy or sad? That I'm the lightest and that I've gained weight.
I think many people are like, "oh, she blogged already ah?" then come flocking to this space and check it out and was hoping I continue the story. But HAHAHHAA too bad coz I didn't! Coz I didn't feel like continuing the story. Should I even let you all know the second half of the story? Hahaha WHY SHOULD I!? Okay lah I see first. Blogging is see mood one. Some days you feel like blogging, some days you just wanna slack. And you don't have blogging inspiration and ideas on what to blog about. Hahaha. Ok lah that's all of my really emo post. You all cried right? Yea I know. I saw that little tear hiding behind your eyeballs. Okay, maybe you aren't crying. Bah! Never mind! K tata!
Wo ai ni,(as friends only lah)
Joyce
P.S: The girl beside me is my good Poly classmate. Her name is Lyn Lim. I know very pretty lah! If interested to make friend, just add in www.facebook.com but don't ask her for steady or what. She is taken!! Hahaha
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Okay firstly, I would like to say that my poor dolphin toy (name is Dolquin. Don't laugh at the name. Thanks) has a hole on her body. T.T How sad is that? My poor baby who smells so good (although my mama will bed to differ) is injured. I think someone shot her. :( This mummy here is sad lah! My poor baby kena injured! Nooooo! Okay then my Mozilla Firefox got problem. WHY!!?? I pressed "Restart Firefox" but also nothing happened. Idiot! Grrrr.. But something good happened lah. I finally uninstalled the annoying Norton that always pops up saying subscription expired and all that. Very annoying everytime I also press "Remind me 3 days later." Oh yeah, I just download AVG. Too bad Norton! Hohoho!
Then another thing is that I have my BA tutorial screaming at me. Sitting there on the table. Shouting at me to go do my homework. Noooo! Walao I holiday too long I really no mood to do homework already lah. Yesterday do Microeconomics I already wanna die. :( Hais. I hate homework. I wish my holidays restart again!) Hahaha then I can go do something productive. Hey, actually I've been going out during the holidays alot! Like almost everyday lah! Maybe I should have gone to work lah. Then I would feel that I spent my holidays productively. Hahaha.
Anyway right, the saddest thing of all, is that I've gained.... 1KG! AHHHH!!! That's a sad thing. Coz I've been 43 since like the start of this year and now I'm like suddenly 44. I ate alot lah these few days. I'm permenantly 44kg already because I took my weight yesterday and I was 44kg and today I took it again just now. I was 44.2kg. :( I think my worms disappeared! That's why I'm starting to gain weight. Maybe one day I passed out my worm lah. Or maybe last time I had Lulu and Sally but now I think Lulu is dead. Hence the blog post name! Because one of my wormies died. RIP worm! My younger sister is 47. She just told me. And thus I am the lightest at home. Should I be happy or sad? That I'm the lightest and that I've gained weight.
I think many people are like, "oh, she blogged already ah?" then come flocking to this space and check it out and was hoping I continue the story. But HAHAHHAA too bad coz I didn't! Coz I didn't feel like continuing the story. Should I even let you all know the second half of the story? Hahaha WHY SHOULD I!? Okay lah I see first. Blogging is see mood one. Some days you feel like blogging, some days you just wanna slack. And you don't have blogging inspiration and ideas on what to blog about. Hahaha. Ok lah that's all of my really emo post. You all cried right? Yea I know. I saw that little tear hiding behind your eyeballs. Okay, maybe you aren't crying. Bah! Never mind! K tata!
Wo ai ni,(as friends only lah)
Joyce
P.S: The girl beside me is my good Poly classmate. Her name is Lyn Lim. I know very pretty lah! If interested to make friend, just add in www.facebook.com but don't ask her for steady or what. She is taken!! Hahaha
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